can we just start over?
and this time I promise I'll tell you the truth.
I feel sad and empty and confused, but mostly sad.
but that's because of the lack of serotonin and not for the lack of love.
trust me, I know myself. let's blame it at PMS and stupid hormones :P
I just sometimes wish I didn't love him because it would have been so much easier right now
- just like I wish SOMETIMES I didn't go to Africa the first time - because everything would have been so much easier right now.
but no, I don't regret it happened. I just have bad days/weeks just like everyone else does from time to time.
so yes, I'm sorry but can you forget what I said?
and I don't care if he knows, if world knows, if someone cares. I have other things to worry about.
I DO LOVE HIM and what?
truly madly deeply.
and now I can laugh at myself, because it really is funny...at least I hope it will be one day - when I look back and tell stories about these days to my kids.